Tell me something good

I got accepted to Boston University! I'm am very excited but also nervous. Up to this point I had kind of talked myself into the fact that I would not get in, and therefore would have to stick it out at my job and make the best of things.

Now is decision time. No, actually tomorrow is decision time. Now is celebration time because no matter what happens from this point forward, I GOT ACCEPTED! And that is a big accomplishment for me.

What do you know about pressure?

No word yet from Boston.

Somehow I didn't get the maternal instinct gene. My entire family would be overjoyed if I would just hurry and have a baby. Part of me wishes that the idea of having children did make me happy. Then I could make everyone else happy. But it just doesn't sound that appealing. Maybe I'm too selfish to be a mother. I want to travel and write and have a career. I don't want to raise another human being. That's quite a task, and I'm just not up to it right now. My mom was always very young, and back then I thought, I want to be a young mom too. At this point I don't know if I'll ever want to be a mom. Maybe that will change with time. Right now it makes me feel guilty because I want my parents to have grandchildren.